When

When your life plan collapses into a heap of reality, when all the hope and dreams implode into a pile of dust in your mind, and when all the ideas you had for your life with and after the plan dissolve on the floor of your thoughts, what do you do then?

When your body betrays you from age and genes and robs you of your plan to be fit and healthy with and after your life plan, and all the effort to get healthy don't work and all the work to be fit won't get you back to where you were, what do you do then?

When your mind becomes tired from the weight of all the lost hopes and dreams, the failed attempts to keep going with your work, and the only words which come to mind are, "I don't care. Not anymore.", what do you do then?

When getting up in the morning offers little if any hope of a good day and only going to bed at night feels good, forgetting every minute of the day because you couldn't remember it anyway, and knowing sleep is the one thing you value most, what do you do then?

What do you do and how long do you wait for an answer from yourself?