Things of Late

I've written about walking with a pinched Sciatic nerve which seems to be slowly and incrementally healing albeit with short periods of being moderately worse from too much work or exercise, mostly lifting or going up and down stair a lot (I live on the 3rd floor).

Anyway, I noticed that after increasing the distance to 8 miles my Dysthymia got worse because I'm physically tired more after walking and struggle to do much for the rest of the day. I'm not entirely sure the two are related but it's not just a coincidence.

I haven't figured out if knowing you're mild to moderately depressed, meaning knowing the signs and seeing them in how you think and feel and what you do or do not do, qualifies that you're depressed as any professional would prescribe therapy or drugs.

I've always worked through these periods and while some last more than a few weeks, some even a few months or longer, I expect I'll come around as there are short periods during some days I feel ok and even briefly good.

Anyway, that's the news, good or bad as it is. I won't stop walking as it's my only choice to get better physically. I've achieved my initial goal of walking 2 hours, which now is just over that since I walk at a 15-16 minute per mile pace, so I've leveled off the distance until the body catches up to find this distance is too easy, which it's not most days.

For now, mentally I'm just treading water and getting through life until it comes around. I'm taking occasional days off from walking for errands and life which helps, so I'm slowly getting better while living with the mental rollercoaster.

Sometime life is like that and the best we can do is hang on.