Being 19

Sometimes I get the feeling I'm still 19. I'm 63, so what the fuck is up with this? Well, some part of me just hasn't grown up enough to forget all the shit in life I had then, being 1968, and all the people who gave me that shit in life, along with all the shit I thought and felt about myself.

Yeah, I never grew up in some respects, but then, I hope I never do. It's what makes me feel alive about life, all the anger I had at 19, with life, my family, my job, college, the draft, ad infinitum. We're supposed to grow up and get through to get on to a mature life. I didn't.

Being 19 shouldn't be forgotten, ever in your life. You should die still thinking when you were 19, and smile you made it this far still being 19.